I spent the weekend in Birmingham. It was a much-needed break from the monotony of home. My heart feels full today from sitting under good teaching and seeing good friends. It was a pretty eventful weekend ... I saw 30+ year olds wearing togas, drinking beer, and grinding with their wives to a cover band in the courtyard of an apartment complex. I don't know if I will ever have that opportunity again, so I am grateful that I got to see it at least once in my lifetime. But my favorite part of my time spent there was seeing the friends that I miss so much every day.
Last night I went to Red Mountain church and then went to dinner at some friends' apartment. Four guys and me ... pretty sweet odds. We enjoyed some very tasty stroganoff and stimulating conversation. We talked a lot about relationships, which I always like doing with single guys ... it makes me see that they think about it probably as much as I do. It is encouraging to know that single Christian guys really do want to date single Christian girls. We talked a lot about love being an action of the will. How love isn't as much about our emotions as we'd like to think. When you consider the bigger picture of marriage, and how the purpose is really to make each other more effective in ministry, your emotions suddenly seem less important, and God's glory becomes the goal instead of our own fulfillment. I decided that I would gladly will to love any of those four guys and follow them anywhere they went.
But its funny how just when you think you're okay with being single and have convinced yourself that you'd be okay if you were alone until you die, you're really not okay with it all of the sudden and a relationship seems more like an urgent need than a measly want. When I was at beach project where there were a ton of people around, I was okay. But then I got home where there is nobody but mom, dad, and the dog and suddenly I'm praying every night for God to send my husband soon! What a fickle mind I have. But it's true, and its good to know that other people feel the same way. But its comforting to know that my heavenly Father knows my needs better than I do, and He also knows what will bring Him the most glory. Someday ...
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