I've been wondernig a lot lately how long my life is going to look like it does right now. I wonder what God has waiting around the corner ... actually I wonder if He has something waiting around the corner. I feel like I am stuck here. Like I will forever be in a job that makes no difference in the world, where there is no opportunity to advance to a different position ... where the things that I do everyday are so mundane and boring that they aren't even worth talking about. Sometimes I think about going to grad school, but I really have no idea what I would go back for ... what I would love or be good at. I was talking about this with one of my closest friends the other night, and he told me that it would help if I was working toward something. Making progress, even if its slow progress, toward some kind of goal. I think he is right. I want to figure out what it is that I love and go for it. But I want to do that while not being broke to death. Damn money. Always causing problems.
I guess I feel stuck in a lot of different areas of life. I'm stuck in my walk with God - actually outside of it. Stuck in my dating life, only getting asked out by people I don't like. Stuck in my apartment, wanting to move out and get closer to work, but not being able to do anything about it until my lease is up. I guess there are worse places to be stuck ... in a burning car for example. At least there's that.