Tuesday, March 7, 2006

Stuck

I've been wondernig a lot lately how long my life is going to look like it does right now. I wonder what God has waiting around the corner ... actually I wonder if He has something waiting around the corner. I feel like I am stuck here. Like I will forever be in a job that makes no difference in the world, where there is no opportunity to advance to a different position ... where the things that I do everyday are so mundane and boring that they aren't even worth talking about. Sometimes I think about going to grad school, but I really have no idea what I would go back for ... what I would love or be good at. I was talking about this with one of my closest friends the other night, and he told me that it would help if I was working toward something. Making progress, even if its slow progress, toward some kind of goal. I think he is right. I want to figure out what it is that I love and go for it. But I want to do that while not being broke to death. Damn money. Always causing problems.

I guess I feel stuck in a lot of different areas of life. I'm stuck in my walk with God - actually outside of it. Stuck in my dating life, only getting asked out by people I don't like. Stuck in my apartment, wanting to move out and get closer to work, but not being able to do anything about it until my lease is up. I guess there are worse places to be stuck ... in a burning car for example. At least there's that.

15 comments:

Ginny said...

i understand a little about how you feel. ever feel like you are living out the movie groundhog day?

amanda said...

Every day, Ginny. Every day.

Jason Harmon said...

Rise and shine campers!! Better put your booties on cause its cold out there.....its cold out there everyday.

bonniebeverlybrown said...

so put your little hand in mine...
da daaaa da daaaaa
da daaaa da daaaaa
i got you babe.
there aint no hill or mountain we cant climb...

amanda said...

Bonnie - what??

Jason Harmon said...

I understand Bonnie.
(the song that plays on the alarm clock in groundhog day, amanda)

amanda said...

Oh, ok. I thought that was probably it, but my cinematic amnesia didn't allow me to remember. Thanks.

alisa said...

i love that you guys are having an entire conversation through these comments.

Ginny said...

glad i could start this whole thing. i love you guys. maybe we should watch groundhog day sometime.

Ginny said...

glad i could start this whole thing. i love you guys. maybe we should watch groundhog day sometime.

amanda said...

Totally, Ginny. Let's do it soon. I miss my time with you, these moments together.

Jason Harmon said...

i like posting things twice
or was that repetitive for the sake of repetition...due to the content of the post and the conversation on groundhog day

Jason Harmon said...

i like posting things twice
or was that repetitive for the sake of repetition...due to the content of the post and the conversation on groundhog day

alisa said...

that's pretty insightful, jason. i thought the double post was an accident. maybe it was in reference to the movie. maybe i'll just ask her.

amanda said...

I've never gotten this many comments on my blog ... I must be the most awseome blogger to ever walk the planet! Or not ...